The little depression I
The little depression I experienced during my manic-depression was not like depression as anyone else had ever described it. It was very violent and angry, and I was full of rage. I wasnt lying in bed. Andy Behrman
Andy Behrman
Most nights, I’m good
Most nights, I’m good for only four or five hours of sleep. That leaves the other 20. I have to fill them some way. Andy Behrman
My manic depression was
My manic depression was ravaging my life, but because nobody could see it, many people thought it was a figment of my imagination. Andy Behrman
I am a rapid-cycling
I am a rapid-cycling manic-depressive, bi-polar one disorder, which means I can have thirty or forty episodes a year, and I used to have thirty to forty episodes a year. Andy Behrman
Like Sylvia Plath, Natalie
Like Sylvia Plath, Natalie Jeanne Champagne invites you so close to the pain and agony of her life of mental illness and addiction, which leaves you gasping from shock and laughing moments later: this is both the beauty and unique nature of her storytelling. With brilliance and courage, the author’s brave and candid chronicle travels … Read more
As no one knew
As no one knew much about my mental illness, a lot of people had the attitude that I had the capability to ‘kick it’ and get better instantly. This was the most frustrating attitude for me. Andy Behrman
When I’m manic, I’m
When I’m manic, I’m so awake and alert, that my eyelashes fluttering on the pillow sound like thunder. Andy Behrman
Weekly $25,000 shopping binges
Weekly $25,000 shopping binges at Barney’s and “high end” boutiques for clothes I barely wore were the norm. So were lavish meals with friends where I picked up $1000 tabs. These high-priced activities were within my limits because I was extremely successful financially, a testament to my manic behavior, not to mention my involvement in … Read more
The guilt I felt
The guilt I felt for having a mental illness was horrible. I prayed for a broken bone that would heal in six weeks. But that never happened. I was cursed with an illness that nobody could see and nobody knew much about. Andy Behrman